I See The Moon

When I was young I worked with my father.  He owned (and still does) a sizable piece of land.  Much of it is wooded and much of it is pasture; a fine mix.  Much of our work was performed at night. Hence, we frequently used flashlights to light our way to our chores (the shooing away of wild dogs, the birthing of calves, and my favorite–the herding of cattle back into the pasture after they had gotten loose).  I remember them swaying by our sides, matching our gaits as we walked in and out of the woods and pastures.  On nights with a full moon we could switch off the flashlights as we departed the darker woods and entered the moonlit pastures.  Often times my father would look up at the moon on such nights and say

“I see the moon, the moon sees me, God bless the moon, and God bless me.”

I recall his old saying to memory with fondness.  It was sort of silly yet unique in its own way.  The past couple of nights, with the big moon shining there, reminds me of those times.

The moon does not produce any light of its own, it merely reflects it.  And sometimes, when it is bright and full, it can be a light to our path.  To some it may just be a big rock in the sky yet if it were not there we would not enjoy the gentle tides of the ocean as we do now.      The moon brings a sense of balance to the disorder of our world.

The church is like a moon, a satellite reflecting the glory of God.  A city on a hill for all to see.  The church like the moon, it brings a sense of balance to the world.

Or does it?  Is the church really like the moon in these dark times–these dark nights?  It seems not.  I know that more often times than not I, personally, do not reflect the glory of God, nor do I bring a sense of balance to the disorder around me.  More often times than not I am not a city on a hill.

We can only be “the moon” we should be if only we choose to be.  Hence, I am inclined to recall my father’s old saying in my own abstract and artsy way–

“I see the moon, the moon sees me, God bless the moon, and God bless me.”

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Industrial Decalogue

The following list is often attributed to Abraham Lincoln but it was, in reality, enumerated by William J. H. Boetcker, a Presbyterian minister, in 1942.

This decalogue represents conservative values applied to economics.  If only the current administration could grasp the common sense wisdom found herein. (Some of these same principles would have applied to the former administration too, most specifically 8 and 9.)

1.  You cannot bring about prosperity by discouraging thrift.

2.  You cannot strengthen the weak by weakening the strong

3.  You cannot help the poor man by destroying the rich.

4.  You cannot further the brotherhood of man by inciting class hatred.

5.  You cannot build character and courage by taking away man’s initiative and independence.

6.  You cannot help small men by tearing down big men.

7.  You cannot lift the wage earner by pulling down the wage payer.

8.  You cannot keep out of trouble by spending more than your income.

9.  You cannot establish security on borrowed money.

10  You cannot help men permanently by doing for them what they will not do for themselves.

–Seems like common sense doesn’t it?  Common sense is change I can believe in.

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A Singular Existential Phenomenon

In the height of summer when the grass was thick and tall I would walk up the steep hill in the pasture across the road from my childhood home.  The hillside’s steep incline rose quickly to meet the bottom of my feet as I dragged them through a sea of deep green every morning to check on the cows in the lower pasture.  At the top of the hill there were three white oaks, huge and giving much wanted shade against the oppressive heat.  From the top there was a spectacular vista of the mountains, a momentary distraction from the duties at hand.  It was a truly nostalgic setting; one that any other child could have looked upon with envy, in retrospect anyways.

This was a daily chore. This was something I did almost every day.  This was something that, though seemingly nostalgic, became commonplace and mundane. It seemed in younger days that life would always follow in this vein, for I had yet to glimpse the workings of time as known by the Old One.

The seasons changed, and then changed again.  The sea of green abated in the winter only to return like the tides in the summer—a rhythm so obvious that you might not catch the subtle undertones of something more profound.  It is easy to become lulled into the routine of the mundane and the commonplace.  It is easy to see and hear only the obvious without ever noticing the subtle yet profound.  But to she who has ears to hear and eyes to see cannot ignore one of the most basic elements of being human—creativity.  No tide, no rhythm, no commonplace chore can render it satisfied.  And if given enough time, not even time itself would fulfill it.

Creativity says I want to be and become, and to be and become both at the same time.  It is simply not enough to simply be.  No.  Creativity says be and become and then do it all over again, be creative and become a creator.  Just do something different this time.  It doesn’t have to be a Cambrian explosion, maybe just a seemingly insignificant and minute change this time.

Time—there is not enough of it.  On the one hand it seems that a limited amount of time may spur someone on to conclude their creative ambitions while they may.  I prefer to think that finitude will not suffice to bring creativity to completion.  Time will certainly provide the opportunity to bring individual creative ambitions to completion but it cannot sate creativity when understood as a singular existential phenomenon.  Creativity by its very nature drives onward like a potential infinite that never sputters out.  It seems the only cure for creativity is not finitude but eternity.

In the humdrum of life there is a lesson to be learned—don’t waste your time on the mundane and commonplace; to do so you risk throwing away one of the most basic elements that makes you human—creativity.

We are created in the image of God.  God has endowed us with a drive to be accomplishers and to accomplish, to be goal setters and bring them to fruition.  We are be(ers) and doers that should reflect the being and doing of God.  And the beautiful thing about it is that we don’t have to be and do the same thing over and over again.  Rather we can do it over and over again creatively.

In my younger days the workings of time mirrored only the cyclical functions of the day-to-day world when in reality the Old One had a much broader vision of the created order.   From a finite perspective we often fail to see that creation has changed and will continue to change.  To some degree the created order seems humdrum but the Old One sees things differently.  It is as if He is a creating creator, a be(er) and a doer in the truest sense, one who is and does for eternity.  He has created us to be and do likewise.

Eternity is for the creative.

Isaiah 43:19  Behold, I will do something new, Now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, Rivers in the desert.

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To Lose Your Soul

Glued to the wall in my bathroom is a cheap mirror scarred with the mix of toothpaste and spit; hard blows meted out with tiresome continuity by obstreperous children.  Through the mirror’s numerous blemishes of streaks and whitish-gray dots I can make out, roughly, the image that is me.  I look disheveled and weary, a fine string of gray hair rises to the surface as I pull the brush through my hair, mirroring and matching in some grossly metaphorical way, the whitish-gray streaks on the mirror.  “This is who I am.” I think to myself.  “Or, maybe the proposition is better reworded into a question—“Is this who I am?”

There were days not too far gone when freedom was commonplace and my leisure answered only to my will.  In the mirror I see the person that is me, and more often times than not there is the temptation to reach back through time, take hold of those days, and bring them to the present so I can keep them forever, and coddle them like some delicate and gentle thing.  Of course that is impossible, and of course my parents felt the same way from time to time, just as theirs did before them.

When I look in that cheap and ungracious mirror I look back through history to all the events and people that brought about the present tense reality of my life.  I am the product of the seemingly random intermingling of diverse times, places, and people that fused together—and together they constitute my historical identity.

But I am here and I am now.  I am a soul of the present and I perceive it in the mirror before me.  I do not see it there but I certainly perceive it.  I know its there, in fact, it is probably more fitting to say that I am a soul and I have a body (Descartes would be proud).  I am not the battle worn mother looking in the mirror, nor am I the epitome of freedom from the summer of life.

So, I suppose that “I” am a singular entity, metaphysically speaking anyway—a numerically identical soul that remains the same through all the seasons of life.  Yet existentially speaking I am by no means a singular entity, I am interconnected with the lives of those children who have scarred the mirror and who will eventually hasten every hair on my head toward winter.  Moreover, not just my children, but all those who are held most dear in my life. They are a part of me, as I am of them.

My identity is a collective whole now.  My soul is a composite of those I love most.  I am not the person I once was for my personhood has taken on the features the present—my present—their present—our present, my identity–their identity–our identity.

How deeply the words of the Gospel of Mark 8:36 resonate with me now: For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?

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In the Midst

Below is a creative and existential twist on the story of the woman caught in adultery, with an emphasis on John 8:3b.  Enjoy.

As yet the smell of sweat and perfume cloaked the night air in a blanket of seduction.  The longing eyes, the silhouette of hair and skin, faintly seen in the candle’s moving glow, possessed an intangible power that not even the dark tendril of her slender yet strong arms could match.  In this moment she controlled him—and this he welcomed with open arms.   And so they were, open that is, as he lay there supine on the bed.  With ribs arched upward toward her waiting hands her fingers climbed his torso as his eyes watched the subtle journey.  “What great weakness, what shamelessness, what hopelessness, what grace is this?” he thought to himself.  With a touch that could move mountains she placed a single finger on his lips, smiled, and with a look of a thousand unspoken words, she told a story of desires fulfilled.  With laughter he craned his face to the sky and relished every one of them.

Outside her window the sound of sandals scratching against the dirt, running to bear the news of a law duly broken, disturbed the lovers’ repose.  Perhaps it was the laughter that gave them away, or, perhaps it was the smell.  Either way, the moment of warm embrace gave way to the rush of clothing being quickly donned and sandals shuffling against the dirt floor.  “Go now” she whispered loudly.  “I’ll see you tomorrow” he said.  He pecked her on the nose and within seconds disappeared over the hill.

Soon the murmuring of rough voices descended toward the village.  The clamor of angry sentiments replaced the ease of previous repose.  She saw the gathering storm of grumbling thunder approaching and sought refuge in the darkness behind the little stone hut.  She rounded the corner only to step into an angry cloud of false witnesses.

It was not the initial shove to the ground that dispersed the fantasy of unlawful affection; it was the fear of legalistic retribution that placed the reality of her wrong doing squarely before her.  Her life before this night was a fantasy; one that was now far out-weighed by reality. There was no sweet innocence here; her accusers would see to that.  Unwarranted pleasure had, this time, been rewarded with a mob.  “Were my actions so wrong; surely we love each other, is that not enough?” she thought.  But it was not enough; the gravity of sin now beset a heavy load of reality upon her soft shoulders.

Both the mob and the young woman were guilty.  Both had broken the law and both were the worthy recipients of justice, but only one would forego its judgment this day.

As the morning sun turned the sky blue the accusers conspired to use her as bait to gain a grander prize—Jesus.  And so they did, use her as bait that is.  They brought her into “the midst” (John 8:3b) and demanded that Jesus pass judgment.  Oh the anticipation that must have widened their eyes; not even the bright sunlight could illuminate their lustful gazes.

The swish of a robe broke the silence.  Jesus walked into the crowd and placed Himself where he rightfully belonged—in the midst—in the center.  There He knelt down and wrote in the dirt.  No one knows exactly what He wrote that day, I suppose that is not the point.  We just were not meant to know.  But Jesus was there in the midst with the young woman and there He dispelled accusations with words unspoken.  In the dirt he distinguished fantasy from reality, lust from morality, law from grace.  With a finger He brought forth new life from dirt.  Just as Adam was distinguished from the dust of the earth by the word of God so was a young woman’s life, in a sense, recreated and re-distinguished that day by the word of God written in the sand.

God is most real to us, not when we look down with furrowed brows deep in contemplation, but when we look up in desperation while He is kneeling low and in our midst.  This is where we are most centered, where we cannot help but distinguish between fantasy and reality, lust and morality, and law from grace.  Why?  Because when Jesus is in our midst all is brought into proper perspective.  When Jesus takes the center of our lives He has our full attention; this is the place in our lives when Jesus can most effectively speak His word to us; “Neither do I condemn you; go, and from now on sin no more.”

 

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Jesus and Evangelicalism Again

Yet again I have compiled some quick thoughts on Evangelicalism’s perspectives on Jesus.  The previous post carried a negative tone, as is often the case for Evangelicalism these days, but this post observes 5 perspectives on Jesus that we Evangelicals get right.

1. Jesus is not still nailed to the cross.  Of course He isn’t, how obvious.  But please don’t miss my meaning.  Jesus is alive and well, He has overcome death and the grave and sits at the right hand of the Father.

2. Jesus is singularly unique.  In all of history no one has backed up their claim to be God in the flesh like Jesus.  The resurrection vindicates who Jesus was and what He said about Himself.

3. Jesus was the recipient of the justice that we deserved.  God being holy cannot simply forgive sins by divine fiat–justice must be served.  Jesus agreed to receive justice in our place and thus be the atonement for our sins.

4. Jesus’ atoning work on the cross was an act of grace.  Jesus did not have to suffer in our place, it was a supererogatory action.  Hence, the cross is simultaneously a vehicle of justice and grace, a picture of law and mercy.

5. Jesus provides eschatological hope.  We do not peer down the scope of time to the despair of a cold and static universe; history is going somewhere worth going.

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Jesus and Evangelicalism

Below I have listed 5 current and prevailing notions of what many evangelicals think of Jesus (even if we do so subconsciously).  But if we look below the surface, and if our eyes are willing to see, it is clearly evident that Jesus is none of those things.

1. Jesus is not my boyfriend.  I don’t want to hold his hand and I don’t want to be held in his arms.  Contrary to much of the contemporary Christian music scene Jesus is not my boyfriend, he is my savior and Lord encouraging, not the comfort of being held, but the burden of taking up my cross and following him.

2. Jesus is not a snack machine.  I can’t deposit my two cents worth of prayers, press a button, and expect the expected result.

3.  Jesus is not a light switch.  I can’t turn him on like a light switch and expect he’ll be there for me at my whim.

4.  Jesus is not a liberal advocating so-called “social justice.”  Jesus never petitioned the government to mandate a welfare program; he left welfare up to generosity and freely given charity.

5. Jesus is not the solid rock I stand upon; more often times than not he is the rock I break myself against.

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The Mystery of God and the Endless White Room

In a macabre dream the other night I was walking through a white space, a room with no walls, no ceiling, and no doors.  There was only the bare white floor beneath my bare white feet.  It was an empty place that continued endlessly into nowhere.  I walked for hours.  At first there was the anticipation that I would finally see some curious object on the horizon that would satisfy my need to discover something,  but nothing appeared on the horizon, there was only more bare white floor beneath my bare white feet going on to infinity.  I continued to walk.  After a while my anticipation for something curious slowly evolved into desperation for escape.  Torturous little thoughts needled my brain like a floating devil hovering over my should and whispering in my ear–”You’re stuck here.  You might as well stop walking.”  I shooed the devil away, but only more needles returned and pierced my brain like a pin cushion.  “What is this place?” I wondered.  I felt so exposed and vulnerable there–no dark shadows to guard my secrets, no objects to hide behind, only the bare white floor beneath my bare white feet.  More time passed and I longed for the protective womb of the mountains of my childhood, I longed for the walls of steel and concrete of my city.  This was a barren place and I was alone.  More needles came and they unstitched the threads of my feeble contentment without mercy.  My thoughts ran wild–”I must be dying.  I’m all alone, exposed and vulnerable.  This is it, its all over, its just me and the endless white room.”   

But I composed myself, kept walking toward an endless horizon, and after awhile I settled into the fact that this was just the nature of the white room.  The white room was not there to bring me hurt; it was just there–and this is what bothered me.  It was there and it kept going on an on, and I wanted to know why there was a white room at all.  

My fears abated, my desperations ceased,  but my curiosity would go unsated.  I wanted more, I wanted a definitive object to place my faith in, I wanted revelation, I wanted my faith to end in sight (as the old hymn goes), but there was only the bare white floor beneath my bare white feet.  I continued to walk directionless, seemingly motionless, with whiteness neither coming or going–just there, all around me.  

I don’t remember exactly how or when it happened but the seed of a deeply profound thought found its way into my mind and took subtle root.  But the subtle root must have received new light for the seed broke forth with clarity.  The thought donned on me, “This is what the will of God must be like, or even better, this is what the mystery of God must be like, an uncertain and vulnerable place that never ends.”  

I kept walking.

Isaiah 55:9  For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

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Beautiful

On a hilltop a lifeless rose bowed low under the burden of drought and gravity.  From time to time the stems shook their thorns at the wind and for a moment it looked as if their passive resistance would be met with a quick snap and fall to the ground. It was an ugly spectacle with its asymmetrical form subjected to the elements.  With wrinkled leaves and browned buds the rose awaited resurrection when the sun would rise warm again in the spring sky and the clouds would burst with rain.  For the time being though it was dormant, for the time being no life giving oxygen emanated from its dessicated leaves, for the time being it was lifeless.  It was not a rose worth loving, or so it was believed.

On a hilltop a rose was planted.  Its roots ran deep of necessity for there was none to nourish it.  If you cared to notice it your heart might have briefly swelled with sympathy, and you might have been compelled to pour a drink of water on its naked limbs.  But then again, you might not have.  You might have thought to yourself “Who would be so foolish to plant such an ugly rose in such an awkward place?  Let it die, it is not my responsibility, after all, it is just an ugly dying rose.”  You probably would have thought such things.

On a hilltop a rose was planted and it was beautiful. With the breath of life withdrawn from its lungs it breathed new life into humanity.  Its asymmetrical stems set the world aright and restores symmetry, even now, for those who will choose to make straight their crooked paths.  Its path leads to a city on a hill for all to see. Its thorns a crown of glory, a crown earned not given, for any who aspire to the regal beauty of a rose.  With new eyes we see beauty that renders us speechless.  Speechless it uttered the strange yet sacred poetry of dying breaths and groans–one can scarce not notice the dissonant rhythm of providence.

For six hours one Friday the rose of Sharon stretched forth in full bloom, confounded our aesthetic sensibilities, and redefined beauty.

Who among us will be beautiful like a rose?

Song of Solomon 2:1  I am a rose of Sharon, a lilly of the valleys.

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Many Thanks

I have been writing on this blog for about six months now. I have no idea how many people read this blog.  My speculation is that it is, at best, doing OK.  If you have been reading this blog consistently, or even just from time to time, I would like to say thank you, I very much appreciate your comments and patronage.  And btw please feel free to comment, digress, question, or even disagree.  It is always helpful to know if others are finding this blog useful, entertaining, annoying, etc.

 

I would also like to use this post to list some topics that will be appearing on The Root and Fatness in the future.

1. Arianism and the Trinity

2. Church and Politics (Superiority of Conservatism of course)

3. More of the occasional artsy/mystical perspectives on random Christian topics (usually Bible verses)

4. Process Christology and Creation.

5. The Problem of Evil

6. Literal Creationism

7. Topics as yet undecided

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